R for Randall

Eid Fitri

2010-09-09T10:25:00.000-07:00

R for Randall has been off the net for a mighty long time due to many workloads and problems.
However,
I would like to wish all the readers (if there are any :p)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir n Batin

Top ten strategies Dealing with a dead horse

2010-05-30T18:37:00.000-07:00

*it had been sometime since i updated my blog due to time constraint...apologies to my readers..if they are any:p"

Top ten strategies for dealing with a Dead horse
1. Buy a stronger whip
2. Change riders
3. Appoint a committee to study the horse
4. Appoint a team to revive the horse
5. Send out a memo declaring the horse isn’t really dead
6. Hire an expensive consultant to find ‘the real problem’
7. Harness several dead horses together for increased speed and efficiency
8. Rewrite the standard definition of ‘live horse’
9. Declare the horse to be better, faster and cheaper when dead
10. Promote the dead horse to supervisory position
John C. Maxwell, Go for GOLD

its a bad week...i just know it

2010-02-24T01:20:00.000-08:00

imagine this happening to u all at one shot:

your alarm system gone cuckoo

your fuel gauge says "E" when you remember like 10 seconds ago you pumped in more than half tank of fuel

your temperature says its FREEZING when you drove more than an hour

you realised your car wheels are flat on the middle of the road early in the morning in darkness

your signal KO

you send your car to wheelshop to fix your wheels ($$)

you send your car to workshop to fix your signal but the shop say no problem cuz its functioning well until you realised right after you left the shop, it come back again

you want to go diana but ...

your wheels flat again

your car cant start

then you mafan your fren to jump start the car - succeeded but the lights wont lit so too dangerous

then you cant start the car again

have to wake up gila early catch bus to class

have to walk under the gila sun to go meet up fren to ask him help jumpstart again

you drive back from serdang to workshop for an hour without signal, light, and if your engine mati - you mati

you fixed your car alternator for couple hundred bucks

you want to fix your wheels but they say the wheel cannot fix cuz damaged to teruk

life is full of fun within 24 hours~!

awesome

The nostalgic moments

2010-01-28T00:36:00.000-08:00

i came across some old photos of others who had passed on.
it seems as if it was yesterday only but then they are gone..
when you come across those photos, you may not cry outward, but inward you may feel very sad and perhaps lonely too.
pictures paint a thousand words.
and most of the photos do reflect good memories only, rather than the bad.
thats what i learnt this week
cherish our loved ones when they are still alive
i must make an effort to be closer with my family members.
i do not want to live a life based on photographs only.
life cn be definitely cruel

The joy behind the sadness

2009-11-22T02:18:00.000-08:00

I am writing this hours after the burial of the late Wei Xiang.
May we meet him one day up in the heavens.
Deaths are definitely not an easy part of our lives. Like it or not, one day each of us have to be
1. in the coffin to be buried
2. in the coffin and then cremated and put into urns or tossed somewhere else

I always tell myself and i believe it is true to the very last breathe. Death wont affect the victim, but only to their loved ones and people around them. When we die physically, it is the end of your physical life. Thats it! However, the people around you are the one bearing the pain. I saw the faces of people around during the funeral. Wei Xiang is gone. His body shall not move already. But the tears flowing freely, especially his parents and sister is just too hard for me to bear. I personally am not a good person when comes to emotion. I will never be able to be composed in such situation.

It was definitely one of the saddest occasion happening to me this year. My moments of saddest moments does not revolves around worldly things like academic or money - although they too have some fair share in my sadness section. however, the things that are truely saddening is seeing lifes going away. No escape definitely. that is why, the bible knock on our heads really hard about this. It is just how hard our skulls is relative to the knock. What is the use if a man gains the whole world but loses his own soul? Why do man focus plainly on academics and titles when they know life is unpredictable. Would we be called up way before our golden days like the late Wei Xiang?

If you do, are you ready?

However, my post is not about really preaching now, but to share my emotions on who we really are. In funerals, the family of the deceased are for sure devastated as seen in the family of Wei xiang. in times like this, we definitely are all alone, crying with the tears at the side of the wall, wailing. but is this true? As Christians, we are definitely blessed to be in the family of God. Not only we have the hope of eternal life, but also having people around us in good times and in bad times. It was heartening to see fellow Christians just pouring out their care and love so freely to the bereaved family. The tears are shared together. Carry each other up hand in hand. This kind of situations are becoming rarer by the moments. People of this world are just chasing their own cash, properties, automobiles and other kinds of worldly materials. However, i seen the ture light of Christian love.

People are willing to just take off their duty and work and rush to attend to the family is a clear signal on the sincerity of those brethrens towards each other and this is highly commendable. Today funeral journey to the grave was also another solid example. one whole stretch of cars double signal all the way to the cemetry shows to us, although this boy is so young and relatively unknown to some, but then brethrens from different congregations come together as one under the same hope, the same faith and the same baptism to offer comfort.

this is the joy behind the sadness and i hope this love will continue to endure. I hope when i die, people will show the same love to my family members as how they shown to uncle chong teck family and the family of uncle wan cheong in those time of sudden losses..

my utmost sincere condolences i give to all of them. i never loss a close member yet, but evenso, i am already very sadden. i could not imagine when my time to face such things arrive.
God bless all of the people i know and i care

Ultraman Oil

2009-11-12T08:25:00.000-08:00

When i thought Ultraman only existed in kids life..looks like they are invading the adults by selling Ultraman Oil..

i stood there for 5 min laughing..seriously..this is one of the Japanese method of branding stuffs..by using their kids hero..

"Pa...buy me Ultraman Oil...Ultraman drink this and become strong to beat the monster.."

I hope the statistics of Malaysian kids hospitalised due to stupidity wont increase by this product..we have enough stupid-kids who lost fingers, eyes,and many parts of body due to fire crackers...please Ultraman..spare em' from the stats by changing your brand to "Ultraman Enemy Engine Oil"...then kids wont pester their parents for 'Ultraman-Juice'

Parents

2009-11-12T01:10:00.000-08:00

this blog posting is dedicated to my parents for no special occasion

Bloggers rarely write up about their beloved parents.
Seriously, its only either when they are gone (touch all the wood in the world) or when the parents do something nasty in their sight (being punished?)
but i would like to take this opportunity to write about my parents - this has nothing to do with me being punished or they...you know.. (touch all the wood in the world again)
Parents brought us up...they have been protecting us since the day when the tadpole + the ovum. or else, why in the world would we be in the womb? the womb is also a place of safe haven for the unborn. it provides a place of protection from the harsh world.
They use all their effort to provide the best for us as kids. The only difference is how they provide for us. For parents which are better off financially, we will enjoy the best of the money can buy. we can get all the luxurious things which will make your peers be jealous of you. however, if your parents are not that wealthy of such magnitude, they will still provide us with the best things they can buy although it differs from one family to another.

i in my case, is more of the second category. I do not really enjoy the luxuries which my fellow peers have. they can always purchase the posh products while i on the other hand am used to get of lower quality. i honestly at times i felt left out in the race of luxuries. however, as i grow up, i begin to understand how much of sacrifices my parents make just to put food on the table and what more to allow me to purchase things for my pleasure and fun. at this point of time, i know how hard for people to earn money and looking at the past on how i used to demand things, it gave me a sense of guiltiness. Dr. Koay in his sermon that day during worship reminiscing the past of my family gave me a serious knock on my head. he reminded me on how things were so tough for my family but yet, despite the toughness, my parents including both my mum and dad protected and provided me with things as if nothing happened during those period.

As teens, we tend to look at our parents as burden, controller, someone to humiliate us in the midst of our peers. To the youths who feel this way about their parents, i urge you to correct your mindset. Frankly, we will definitely not have our parents forever. It was written in the Bible that all of us will die one day - including our beloved parents. some of us are unfortunate to lose our parents or dearest family members. they know what i meant. Sooner or later, we will have to face the fact of losing them - the only question is when. we do not know when or how they will depart. that is why im urging my fellow readers to honor and respect our parents. they had shown us love and kindness that no one in the earthly world will ever do to us.

back to my parents. they actually had provided me with one of the best childhood despite all the challenges. both my brother and i had a great time growing up as kids all the way to teens and now approaching adulthood. I would like to thank Dr. Koay for giving us the straightforward reminders and my dearest parents and family for the love and care that no one in the world can ever substitute.

The Sense of Insignificance

2009-10-27T10:00:00.000-07:00

When I got my licence, I was priviledged to enjoy cars. Although they are old, but heck, I got options. Some have new cars..but no options. I had one Mazda and a Proton.
Initially the Mazda wasnt allowed for me to drive it due to the fact of the engine. 160hp driving front wheels, turbocharged, and sporty.Torquesteer??all the time i clinged to my life. So i sticked to my Proton for a moment. It gave me memories...mostly stupid memories..
when i said stupid..its good type of stupid...
but when i was allowed to play with Mazda, I was enthrilled. however, i indirectly abandoned my Proton. i do occasionally drive it. i do occasionally clean it.
but my attention is diverted to Mazda.

actually for the past years since those moments, i din realise how much i had 'hurt' Proton. Proton served me alot of joy. Good FC, Low Maintainence,Less Noise.
but i chose to focus on Mazda.

This is like our lifes. You see, we have people around us. We tend to be around them. However, when we found other people, to you may be better. So naturally we will stick close to them. the problem is, we stick to the new side until we forget our old counterparts like how i forgotten Proton. I am now in the similar situation faced by Proton.

Im sorry Proton for abandoning you last time. Those who wants to know the story after that,
feel free to share a cup of tea with me.

I felt that Proton is felt insignificant. I hope i wont do such thing to anyone

The Sibling Connection by Hip

2009-09-28T01:30:00.000-07:00

Copyrighted by the related members and bodies

The sibling connection

By HIP

WHAT is the sweetest thing in life? Is it waking up in the morning and finding an “I love you” note beside you on the bed? Is it going to bed after hours in front of the PC and finding a drawing of a huge Smiley face wishing you “Good night, XOXO”? Or is it coming home after a long tiring day in college and being greeted with a bear hug?

Yes, I get all that from my sweet little sister.

I want to always be able to hug her, pinch her soft chubby cheeks, kiss her and carry her like a baby. But I also want to be able to talk about “deeper” stuff with her, instead of just asking, “Who did you go to recess with?”

I want my sister to remain innocent, to say the cutest things like, “The cuttlefish will cut your stomach!” But I want her to grow up, so I can finally have someone to share my clothes with. Well, I shouldn’t worry too much. She is growing up and there’s nothing I can do to stop that.

My sister says she wishes that we were twins. She already is a carbon copy of me. A mirror image, my Dolly. She looks like I did when I was her age. She has the same favourite colours as me. She does her hair the way I do mine. She listens to the music I like and watches the TV shows I watch. She even copies the fancy way I write.

The perfect sister? Pretty much so. Even when I do get upset with her, it’s never for long. Once I was angry and refused to speak to her. She wrote me a note saying, “I am sorry, sister”. How could I possibly stay angry? And people still wonder why I love her so much.

I want to protect her from the harsh realities of life: Sometimes people won’t like you for who you are, they don’t want to be your friend. Sometimes you’ll experience failure and disappointment, heartache and bitterness.

She has to experience all that herself. Still, I know I will always be there for her. If she wants me, that is. She might, she might not. Bonds can fade. Hopefully, not ours.

I will treasure the moments I have with her because not everyone gets a angel for a sister. The 10 years between us is not a gap. It’s a bridge that connects two separate souls.

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its a good writeup...

Ms. Hip is so gonna kill me for this...she prefer anonymousity

Harddisk Drives and Driving You Happy

2009-09-27T09:22:00.000-07:00

Bills...problematic hard disk..and stress..

wow...

its madness..

money..life and health...

three great combination of life shortening effects...

but SOMEONE in the world just made a big difference..

making me some delicious cookies...although wasnt meant to be mine though..

and took all the trouble to make me a hard disk cover..since my leather one kena abuse kao kao..

now i have no excuse to abuse my harddisk as it is snuggled nicely in some felt cloth..

life is always great when you know someone cares for you alot...

i hope this feeling will always be there..

"people do not care how much you know until people know how much you care"

how true...

thank you so much for being a part of my life

Big gracious Thank u

2009-09-22T05:02:00.000-07:00

once i thought i will not see the Keychain 'My Job Sucks'

thank goodness i have you...

for giving me many blessings..

like 'My Job Sucks', Wimpy, and my latest pet called 'Mimpi'

Hopefully i can keep that for years to come...

its not the price that matters...but its the sincerity...

Thanks so much for giving me all of these priceless stuffs...

XoXo

Selfish Prawns

2009-09-09T21:00:00.000-07:00

some people out there are the selfish people..
they use you when they need you and want to sabo you when they do not need you..

THESE GROUP of PEOPLE

are the UTMOST DISAPPOINTMENT in the history of mankind!!!!

i wish i could write some extra bits and info..
but it is deemed for mature readers only..
R for Randall as i mentioned is a kid-can-also-read type of blog
:p

K&N filter

2009-09-07T03:57:00.000-07:00

my K&N cone filter is damaged!!!!

arggghhhh!!!!!

it fell off the intake manifold and of all the place to drop..

in between my lower arm and the engine mounting...

it crushed parts of my filter..sobs sobs..

heartbreaking man..

no wonder recently my engine pick up seems faster than usual..

sobs

The signs are obvious

2009-09-06T21:30:00.000-07:00

i think i should just let it off the hook.

p/s: my condolences to my aquarium fishies for the passing away of Mr. Lampam

this is how it should go

2009-09-05T11:32:00.000-07:00

*speechless*

My daily meals

2009-08-26T22:32:00.000-07:00

medicine medicine and medicine..sighs

I feel weird

2009-08-26T22:27:00.001-07:00

yeah..i just feel weird recently..
weird but true..

Its all coming back to me now

2009-08-21T01:49:00.000-07:00

Recently, my health is a definite no-no to me..
constant headache
feverish
shoulder ache
neck ache
dizziness
all are things that make me no well...*definitely*
thats why i went to PKU with my bestie..
mana tahu..my bestie also not in pink of health (why in the world they use pink)
like for me..
i checked my BP..jialat...
its high up again..the doctor asked me about my lifestyle..so i told her :
sleep at 2-3am wake up at 5-6am..
whole day class with occasional power naps..
she blamed it on our education system..
HIGH 5 doc!!!
but low 5 for my health..
hope i will get well soon

Popstar

2009-08-02T05:55:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bPIpDRjUGaM

everyone wants success..
everybody wants to be rich..
but do you think everybody can achieve it?
optimist will say yes
pessimist say no
Randall is a fan of the late John Scatman..he is one inspirational singer, scatter, and one big impact to me.
he wrote the song that explains everything about this:
most people when being a popstar will dress massively, trying to be different. John Scatman was just an ordinary popstar with extraordinary abilities. he passed away in 1999, and Randall realised it on 2009. 10 year lag. streamyx also wont lag that bad.
but i will always love his songs, especially this:

POPSTAR - John Scatman

Someone's got to be the hero
Someone's got to do the job
Someone's got to do the business
Someone's got to be the fool
Someone's got to be the hero
Someone's got to do the job
Someone's got to be the clown who's creating the sound and makes the world go round(Scatting by Scatman John)
I'm a topstar,rock star,shooting star,falling star,hero and a sample success
I got gold-plated toilet tissue
Money never is an issueTV people call me as their guest (Scatting)
I got low hangin' trousers all the way to the top
All the things a home boy could ever be
My life is so upgraded
My ego's so inflatedThat I've become an X-rated fantasy (Yeah)
Someone's got to be the hero
Someone's got to do the job
Someone's got to do the business
Someone's got to be the fool
Someone's got to be the hero
Someone's got to do the job
Someone's got to be the clown who's creating the sound and makes the world go round(Scatting by Scatman John)
I'm the Captain of Charisma and the Sultan of the Soul
I'm looking I can set you all freeJust look at me,it's plain to see
It's obvious,you must agree
I'm everything you'll ever wanna be
I take my name as serious as any popstar can
I'ma leader and an icon and a revolution man
I'm starring in a video I'm to hot to flop
I'm the goal of every seeker and my ratings never drop(Scatting by Scatman John)
Well I'm rising to the top and you can see I'm really hot
And you know I'm everything I portray
I'm so hip-slickin' cool and so charismic as a rule
That I don't take the time to finish what I sayPopstar,lollipop,popsicle,hall of fame
Look at me,I'm bigger than life
I've got patent leather shoes and I never pay my booze
And I don't sing the blues or take a wife
Everthing you've heard me say so far is a joke
An open mind and sense of humour is our only hope
I want to say just one more thing before I move along
I betcha really glad we're near the end on the song
I leave you now,take a bowHope you all agree
A popstar isn't everything it's cracked up to be
If I have to do anything it's what I wanna say
A pop is an explosion,all you've got is you today
Someone's got to be the hero
Someone's got to do the job
Someone's got to do the business
Someone's got to be the fool
Someone's got to be the hero
Someone's got to do the job
Someone's got to be the clown who's creating the sound and makes the world go round(Scatting by Scatman John) (With Scatting Over)
Someone's got to be the hero
Someone's got to do the job
Someone's got to do the business
Someone's got to be the fool
Someone's got to be the hero
Someone's got to do the job
Someone's got to be the clown who's creating the sound and makes the world go round
Too hot to flop,too hot to flop (Just look at me)
Too hot to flop,too hot to flop (Yeah)
Too hot to flop,too hot to flop (Just look at me)
Too hot to flop,too hot to flop

WHY?

2009-08-01T11:36:00.000-07:00

DOTA is so so hard..
u play online..get killed online..and respawned again..and kena kill again..

if only got RACING game for me online..
any kind hearted soul willing to sponsor me xbox 360 live or PS III ?

please....?
i promise to be good :)

Review: Gophers Quatro

2009-07-29T02:11:00.001-07:00

its been a super long time since i told myself to give a review on this GPS equipment
well..
my bro managed to let me use a Gophers Quatro GPS.
hey..its one of the latest still..proton uses it..chevy if you realised the captiva ad..it comes with a GPS with reverse camera..which is the exact model..
lol
so, do i think Quatro is cool? YES!
now you may ask..
1. whats so cool of this Quatro?
ans: it comes with a wireless reverse camera..in fact..you can plonk in if i not mistaken 2 additional cameras making it become 3 cameras in a car... good thing to show off to your buddies eh about it
2. GPS is it accurate?
ans: it do help..just to warn you that sometimes it can tick you off too esp when you know the directions but just want to on it for the sake of 'i have a GPS'...so beware
3. what things Quatro have?
ans: GPS for sure, notepads, games, mp3 that plays from the radio frequency, movie player, speed meter, speedtrap sensor, and many other things..i only managed to play with it for a week..
so im sure i do missed out some stuffs due to other commitments involved.
so whoever which is interested in this, do contact me ya? its cool thing to have in your cars...if proton exora and persona SE have it, why not you?

Obituary : Yasmin Ahmad

2009-07-26T03:48:00.000-07:00

it came to be a big shock this morning when i was reading the papers.

her movies are many of my must-watch list.

she did not do movies which have bad values and meanings.

her movies bridged the racial gap in our multi-cultural society.

her adverts touched the hearts of many malaysian including me.

it is truly a saddening news to hear regarding her passing away.

nonetheless, R for Randall wishes deepest condolences to the family of the late YasminAhmad. although for sure none of her direct family members will read my blog, but i just feel its so so necessary to highlight this as i truly enjoyed her movies.

the excerpts are taken from thestar.com.my

KUALA LUMPUR: Award-winning film director Yasmin Ahmad (pic) has died from massive bleeding in the brain at the Damansara Specialist Hospital.
She died at 11.25pm yesterday. She had undergone surgery following her collapse at the TV3 headquarters Seri Pentas on Thursday.

The 51-year-old movie maker was famed for her advertisements and films capturing the essence of racial harmony in Malaysia.
Relatives, loved ones and a large group of luminaries from the local movie and television scene gathered at the hospital the moment they heard about her death.
Among the first to arrive were veteran actress Fatimah Abu Bakar – a close friend of Yasmin – and Media Prima International CEO Datuk Seri Farid Ridzuan.
Although distraught, those present paid tribute to the award-winning director.
“We would come cross a few great people in our time on earth. Yasmin was one of them.
“She wasn’t an easy person to live or work with, but that was only because she was so talented.
“She had a big heart and vision that we usually don’t understand. That was why people misunderstood her. But she never intended any malice,” said Fatimah.
She added Yasmin’s films had always been about love and forgiveness because that was the way her parents brought her up.
Fatimah’s daughter, Sharifah Amani, who acted in Yasmin’s films, was too distraught as she stood by at her mother’s side.
She refused to talk to the press.
Fatimah and Farid acted as the spokespersons for Yasmin’s family to announce her death and details of her funeral.
TV host Aznil Nawawi, said he had always admired Yasmin’s work although he never had a chance to work with her.
“She possessed the knack on how to capture the essence of Malaysia through her movies and commercials.
“I last saw her when she was promoting her movie Talentime at the Radio Era office,” he added.
Suria FM chief executive officer Engku Imran Engku Zainal Abidin described Yasmin’s death as a great loss – not only to the entertainment and movie industry, but to the nation as a whole.
“Her movies are watched by all races because they can all relate to the messages conveyed.
“We have lost a great, intelligent and creative director,” he added.
Yasmin will be buried after Zohor prayers today, although at press time the location of the burial has yet to be determined.
Fatimah said Yasmin’s body would be taken to the SS19 Mosque in Subang Jaya for prayers.

Something cocky popped out

2009-07-21T04:21:00.000-07:00

snapped it downstairs my place in Serdang..

told ya it was cocky!

I Love this drink

2009-07-21T04:17:00.000-07:00

not too sweet
not too bland
not too thick
not too thin
not too sour *it shouldnt be*
not too bitter *better not*

good for health
good for body
good for mind
good for soul

Thank u for the drink

:)

my thoughts

2009-07-20T20:42:00.000-07:00

1. things are changing mostly for the worse
2. I feel life can be made more interesting than what it is
3. Friends MAY not appreciate what we do as friends
4. We MAY not appreciate what friends had done for us

ramble ramble ramble...
some of my thoughts for now...

Patriotic People of Malaysia: Take Note

2009-07-12T17:00:00.000-07:00

I am doing an advert for my fellow friend, fido.
he is selling Merdeka 2009 tshirt.to me it looks great. seen it already.
well, if you are interested, do drop by his webbie..
i already linked it for you guys to click it too
:)
http://acetshirt.blogspot.com/

Teaching of Science and Mathematics Reverted Back to BM

2009-07-08T23:39:00.001-07:00

this article is taken from thestar.com.my
I couldnt more than agree with what comments that have been articulated

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KUALA LUMPUR: Many parents and students are very disappointed at the Cabinet’s decision to reverse the Teaching of Science and Mathematics policy.

Said mother of three Kam Swee Har: “Language is not just about teaching grammar and writing essays; it is the whole application of the language.

“The exposure is different when you’re learning technical subjects like Science or Maths.”

Engineer and father of four, Sulaiman Mahran, agreed: “Technical terms need to be absorbed in English, so strengthening English in general is not going to help in Maths and Science.”

Azra Banu, who has a child in Year Six, pointed out that it is the rural students who will lose out in the long run.

Businesswoman Haili Abdul Jamil, who has two children in Years One and Two, is seriously considering enrolling her children in an international school following the decision.

The impact of the decision is particularly hard on students who will enter Form Four in 2012.

Form One student Anisa Sulaiman is anxious about switching to Bahasa Malaysia in the two subjects when she gets into Form Four in 2012.

“I have been learning Maths and Science in English, so it will be difficult if we change the medium of instruction later on,” she said.

In Penang, Han Chiang High School Just English centre adviser Ooi Lay Le said the standard of English among students would drop if the two subjects were not taught in the language.

“We are going backwards,” said Ooi who has been teaching for 40 years.

SJK (C) Union Bahasa Malaysia Committee head Cheah Choo Suan, 55, said teaching the subjects in English would have helped broaden students’ knowledge of new terminologies and improve their command of the language.

Year Five student R. Abirami, 11, from SK Convent Green Lane, said it would be hard for her to adapt to the new system.

“We have memorised the scientific terms in English,” she said. “I’m afraid it will be hard to re-learn them in Bahasa Malaysia.”

In Johor, some parents are even considering sending their children to Singapore where they can learn in English.

Dr Santhi Sivalingam Moorthy, 41, said she would seriously consider transferring her three children, aged between five and 10, to Singapore schools now.

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i am utterly disappointed with the decision made. I can understand how saddening Dr. M is when this is announce. i am a tuition teacher, a former student who learnt both Bm and English in Maths and Science, and a current university undergraduate. the things that i had seen through my eyes in these changes were from bad to good (which is when it is reverted to English) and good to bad (when english is changed to BM).

Our DPM mentioned about the 'soft-landing' idea, i could not comprehend how soft can it be seeing the children's future being put into mess once again. for those who can afford to send their kids to other country to study such as Singapore, i believe what they are doing is right; unless their financial burden is stopping them from doing it. by reverting it back again, it seems that they are just juggling the children up and down. i pity them.

now we are facing globalisation process. The language to learn and command is English. What more if in technical field such as Medical or Engineering or IT. can you imagine a Malaysian student being a doctor in say, Singapore. "Nurse, can you help check this person's HATI?" Hati = heart if we translate directly. Hati = liver according to BM Science.

or

A Malaysian Engineer working in overseas. " Can you please check the RASUK of this structure?" RASUK??!!! it means being possessed by a spirit. But it mean TRUSS in BM.

or

A Malaysian Chemist talking to a Foreign Chemist. " This Kalium Permanganate (VII) berasid is an agen pengoksidaan"...you get my drift right?

it will be a waste of resources reprinting back again their textbooks. if this is brought all the way to tertiary level, can you imagine the ruckus created? where would the foreign students fit in this situation? we cant expect them to learn BM in one semester and join the flow of the studies.

For teachers who are teaching in English, dedicated teachers i mean who spend their time writing down notes all just for the students learning progress..it will definitely put them in a depression as they have to do it all over again in BM.

Dr. M said it right in this following quotes and i support his idea wholeheartedly.

“But if we can train teachers to learn English, why can’t we do the same by training them to learn and teach Science and Mathematics in English?"

“These matters, of course, cannot be resolved overnight. But it’s the Government’s responsibility to train and supply capable teachers. I’m confident that our teachers will be able to study and teach in English,”

I am hoping for a MIRACLE to happen in this...

with much disappointment,
from a teacher, a student, and a Malaysian

The Balance

2009-06-30T08:57:00.000-07:00

people always say..balance this balance that..
life must be balanced..
you must be balanced..
easier said than done..

the way to achieve virtue is by not giving importance to material things, and to instead cultivate oneself, mind, and character (aristotle)

“If there isn’t harmony in the way people enjoy food, then it would be a poison instead of medicine or even a pleasure,” (anaxagoras)

it gets tougher when you realised that when you are a christian, it is even more hard to strike a harmony between your secular life and your spiritual life..

the bible quotes "for the love of money is the root of all evil" but then you need money

the bible also say " do not worry about tomorrow"

those two tiny verses do have its importance..of course it does..since it comes from God for the bible say in II Tim 3:16 all scriptures is given by the inspiration of GOD

but the thing is, how are we able to apply in our daily life..
i always say..preaching is one thing...teaching the things you preach is another..preaching and doing the thing you teach is another and i know this is the right way..

recently, it has been a great and wonderful blessing in my life..
remember my post R for Randall, B for Broke and J for Jialat..
now i am currently teaching tuition once again..
all praises goes to God almighty..not me..for all blessings come from God..
although the pay is way lesser than wat i used to earn, i do not blame anyone for it..
it is still a means of survival..

however, there is a big hurdle i guess..which is choosing whom to attend too..
this is due to i was offered a class to handle..
the pay is for sure good..
the environment to me is healthy and conducive..
everything is good except for the time..
this is due to during that time, there may be Church activities namely for the youths..
if i take up that job, i would have to bid farewell to the entire activity..

that is why comes the word balance..
i need to balance..
i need to set my priorities..
i need to choose who is more important: the youths or my earnings..

many ppl whom i know always say..church can wait..
or 'i have plans to do so i cant go youth activities'..
we cant blame them because it is their pre-set priority..
to some..youth activities may just be a non-productive time spent..
to some..it may just be a time to so call hang around bid farewell
to some..i do not know what are other excuses..

but all i know..in Matt 6:33..but seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all this things shall be added unto you..

this verse..strongly hammered inside my head tell me who is my priority..
is it money or church..
is it fun or God..

in the old testament..
for the case of abraham and lot..
this is a simple classic example..Lot chose the land which was more fertile and green - but it ended up was full of sins whereas for abraham..he chose the less fertile ground..but it was god who blessed the land and prosper..in the end..Lot's area (sodom and gomorrah) was utterly destroyed and his dear wife became a pillar of salt..

this shows that although sometimes we think when we work so hard to earn so much money..
or that if we choose a company that pays us super well..but having to make us skip church by all reasons..the thing is - IS IT WORTH IT? WHO IS MORE IMPORTANT - GOD OR MONEY?

that is why i urge fellow Christians, especially the younger ones..
sometimes, we will come across this thing..choosing secular stuffs or spiritual stuffs..

you need to strike a balance..
pray to god for wisdom..
ask fellow christian friends inc. me about it..

i hope that the youths will continue to serve God and make him your top priority rather than your other stuffs..

i know God will always bless us if we put importance in him..
many times i came across this by doing so..
it will happen to you too if you trust in him just like how Job trusted God although he being put to trials..
or like Joseph of the old testament..
when things sucks..it sucks for a reason..
God will never ever abandon us..
he is an ever-supply and will continuously bless us if we seek after him..

Discussion: Going Dutch on a Date

2009-06-14T18:16:00.000-07:00

Foreword: this was an article i read on The Star Online(www.thestar.com.my). all the article belongs to the right of the owner. What that intrigues me is the idea she brought forward. Times are changing indeed. But may I know my fellow reader's opinion on this. Quite an interesting yet neverending discussion may follow suit.
Cheers from R for Randall

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THE last time I went out on a first date, I realised halfway through my pasta Arrabiata that I would probably never see my dinner companion again. Our values were not in synch and our lifestyles didn’t mesh. Some of his opinions were also a little badly timed. Like his statement that women wear makeup to mask some deep-rooted inferiority complex.

I mean to say, there I was, sitting opposite him, with my lashes mascara-ed, and my lips glossed and my cheeks slightly blushed, and he had the cheek to suggest that I lacked the confidence to let the world see me as I really am.

Who’s paying? When on a dinner date, it is more appropriate for the person who initiated the invitation to pick up the bill. After that, it’s probably best to share the bill.

What absolute tosh! At that moment, I felt confident enough to contemplate jabbing my fork into one of his opinionated eyeballs. But I chose not to act on my thoughts. Besides, the sight of blood spurting out of a vacant eye socket might just have put off my dinner, and I really was quite hungry.

For over an hour, I feigned interest in his opinions and tried not to let my own quickly formed opinions of him spoil my appetite. As I overdosed on carbs, I listened to him twittering on about the benefits of regular fasting. As I sipped a glass of Merlot, he talked about the evils of alcohol. I responded by ordering another glass. How’s that for being confident?

Later, when he asked if I would like to share a dessert with him, I declined. There’s something intimate about sharing a dessert with someone of the opposite sex that sends out a certain message. Maybe it’s the closeness of two people converging over a small plate. Maybe it’s the exchange of oral bacteria. Maybe it’s the seductive, simultaneous licking of spoons. Whatever, I wasn’t in the mood for food foreplay.

When he declined coffee, I called for the bill, with every intention of paying for it in full. However, when the waiter presented it to me a short while later, my date reached over and attempted to grab it from me.

“You must let me pay for it!” he said.

“No, I want to pay for it,” I said.

You can get the next one,” he said.

“There isn’t going to be a next one,” I wanted to say, but didn’t.

“OK, let’s go Dutch,” I said instead.

“You remind me of my mother,” he said. “She always wants to pay.”

The fact that he saw his mother in me caused me to lose my grip on the bill.

After he’d paid, I thanked him, wished him good night, and sped off home for some good chocolate, makeup remover and to ponder the ‘who pays for what’ conundrum.

When I go out with a girlfriend, we usually go Dutch. There are no arguments, or hidden agendas, or hard feeling to contend with. The same should apply when I’m having a dinner with a date. The only exception being the first date.

On a first date, I think it’s more appropriate for the person who initiated the invitation to pick up the bill. After that, I think it’s best to go Dutch. Either that, or pay for every other date.

However, some of my girlfriends have different ideas as to who should pay on a date.

“If the guy is earning more money than you, it’s OK to let him pay for the bigger items,” said one friend. “For example, if he gets dinner, I’ll pay for things like the cinema and coffee.”

“I’m OK with going Dutch, but if my date wants to pay, I let him pay,” said another.

Of course, there are some women who think that the man should pay the bill, all the time. Men sometimes complain about such women, while continuing to date them. So it seems, they must be getting something else out of the relationship that compensates for them picking up the tab all the time.

I even read about one woman’s justification for never offering to pay for dinner. Before she goes out on a date, she usually has a manicure, pedicure, something done to her hair, and buys a new outfit and some new underwear (just in case). She might also take some time off work to achieve her desired level of attractiveness. All of which add up to more than the cost of an expensive dinner.

So, all you single guys out there, the next time you buy a girl lunch, you might just have paid for a new pair of knickers.

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'HOT' pictures out of the steelplant

2009-06-07T01:52:00.000-07:00

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and a dusty lighting effect...take that DSLR's...i used K610i camera only..lol

Why Labourers Ought To Be Respected At Par With Their Bosses?

2009-06-04T15:47:00.000-07:00

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as you all know, currently i am doing my industrial training at the company that is making me survive in university. i have to admit, sometimes i question myself " did i make the right choice"

this event make me think harder and ponder harder on the question. its not due to the salary all. it seems attractive the future salary prospect. the office they are giving me also is cool. they put me at the back corner of the office. a haven for sleepers and people who like to be low profile like me.

but its the job and the environment outside my comfy zone that scares the daylight out of me. look at the picture above. that is the stairs leading up to the roof of the steelmelting plant.hhmm...steel melting..cool...i mean hot..
later i shall post up some other 'hot' pictures taken.

i was up there, climbing those stairs to the roof with my fellow execs. if i do it daily, i will be as thin as an anorexic dude who is suffering from severe malnutrion but yet still refuses to eat..you get the point right? super thin..bone thin..

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see those pictures...nice view right..i did enjoy the breathetaking view.. the reason i climbed up that high was due to a small project where the roofing have to be replaced. time passes by sure the roof spoil one right? thats where i start to see some unbelievable conditions..

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this was the scene...those people have to walk through that gaping hole to fix the new roofing. their pathway is just the purlin of the building make of steel. its tough. but then one small mistake its one way down to earth...oppss..or should i say molten steel. but then those people have guts! but but but ...hold on!!!! something is bound to happen..

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the steel melting process is in progress...cough cough..seriously...even i was wearing those protective mask can still smell those burning steel..eewww...
life cut short for 5 years..
those labourers worse..they just cover with some shirt..while doing it..
and the worse part..they dun earn much..however their guts..i respect them..thats why i named my topic as above..bosses usually sit in office..play their hp..pc..harass their bottom people to work harder without extra pay..but in the end their salary is way above us..
unfair? yes
caring? perhaps not
they should be up there too seriously. next time when i ..if i become a boss.. i will be there also..checking if they need anything to help..cuz i always believe..even if u are the boss..we are all the same..helping each other will earn you respect..not thinking that they will step your head..
however..i only have one big problem..

I AM AFRAID OF HEIGHTS....arrgghh...

My 1st week at Megasteel

2009-05-23T03:33:00.000-07:00

well, it has been a super long time since i posted. i was deprived of internet until recently when both internet and computer has been restored.
currently im stuck in Megasteel for my training. although seriously there is nothing much to be done, due to the economy slowdown,but the company still jaga us as if we are big boss. i feel humbled by it. so what do i mean?

let the picture illustrate it ya?

me got me own accomodation..12th floor..facing the river..aaww...so romantic..if only it was not work related..
haha
but then it was on this first uneventful week something eventful happened...
u see..one day i suddenly felt like my wrist hurts..i dismissed it as too 'busy' with my computer..since everyday my task is to beat my personal high score..
cool eh?
but then the next day things got worse..
both wrist and leg also hurt..
i couldnt even open my own bottle of water..
this was bad..dun tell me the high score made it like this..
so i went to clinic to check up..doctor suspected me dengue..no need doctor suspect also i feel so...
so the doctor suck some of my blood..

see..i was being victimised..
lol
but then they said the report will be out on the next morning
i was cool with it..
during the next day, i went to the clinic..
they said it will only be out in the evening..so i feel so jialat.that why i told my mum and i decided to take MC..drove back to klang..and go hospital..Klang GH to be precise..mana tahu they dun do such test on normal days..asked me to go other government clinic..thats why i decided to go private hospital..but thankfully chiang ling called and say just wait..
save money..
haha
and in the end..the report came..
viral fever..which means no need to go hospital and i can sleep at home..yay.

Going up the hill and down the health

2009-05-06T23:06:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday was my friend wedding in KEC.
well, it was fun, food was OK *hint: i did not say delicious*
but the atmosphere was wedding-licious...
however, after that wedding and stupidly shouting yamseng and drink coke until drunk and intoxicated with sugar, i actually begin to feel unwell..
yeap..
u read it right..
R for Randall is now S for Sick
so actually on Monday i went to LCCT to send of few of my friends who are happily enjoying their life in their tent inside their home, doing their AIESEC Exchange.
should be fun judging on their photographs..
the funny part is...
they all thought was in LCCT, i thought was in LCCT, but the fact is it is in KLIA..
ooppss...near fatal error..
luckily time was on their side..
and managed to fly away safely to Taiwan from KLIA..
haha

Lesson 1: confirm your flight is either Subang, LCCT, KLIA or the upcoming LCCT2..you never know this mistake will repeat again..
so after that i drop by Bangi for awhile to fight fishes.since Bangi and LCCT is a stone throw away..i just realised how connected Sepang too many places like Bangi, UPM, Nilai..its just nonsensically near..compared to my initial thinking

Lesson 2: New roads will open up new possibilities..and perhaps lesser tolls :p
however, i only fished for awhile only cuz i seriously feel unwell edy..drowsy, feverish..oopppss..signs of swine flu...yeeoouucchh...
on that night..confirm my fever had arrived..first time in history of this month..i slept by 9pm..
haha..so well behaved with a koolfever slapped on top of my head..

thank goodness that the next day my fever ran away just like how Forrest Gump ran when the famous Run Forrest Run phrase was said..

but my flu continued until today..and you know.. it came as a package where i even got ulcer..
haih..

i will be going to Cameron this weekend..nope..no funny stuffs with my car..as much as i hate to admit..but its for my friends wedding..same friend..but that is the guys side..

Pray for my safety ya...or my flu shall get you..coupled with Mr. Ulcer-in-your-mouth..
haha..

MIRACLE do happen

2009-04-30T01:48:00.001-07:00

UPM we have this system of semester; 14 weeks of hell studying and including your tests and quizzes and assignments and 2 weeks of hell but with Satan standing beside you and poking you whenever he likes by the means of examinations.

One of the course, Structural Design in UPM, we have this project of building a house. So here are some of the comments I get from outsiders:
• Wah, can build house liao…geng le…build my house for free
• Professional edy wo…like Phua Chu Kang!
• Ir. Randall Chirng!
• Prof. Tun Tan Sri Datuk Dr. Ir. Ar. Randall Chirng! * I like this the most but its IMPOSSIBLE*

The project is to be submitted on the 14th week of the semester. Sounds simple eh? It is, if you did it early in the beginning. Sadly, it did not happened. Due to some miscommunication and slackness, we all did it in the 14th week. Nightmare, disaster, catastrophe, glazed with jialatness and kixiao-ness. During the single week, we need to learn a Made-in-Malaysia software and doing calculation by hand and cracking your head typing reports. To sprinkle, no, wait, its to spray salt on the wound, our good Quantity Surveying due date is also the 14th week. Ouch! Luckily, I am happy to declare that I am blessed to get my QS group as they all complete the task on time before hand and is of quality work. They also helped me a lot in this hell. The 14th week of study is hell that dwelled upon the Civil Engineering class of 2011 with Satan working overtime and he having bad mood. What do I mean? This is horrible! Simple as that.

But MIRACLE did happened. We all managed to finish in time, and you know what, I was the first to submit the report. I do not know my results, I do not know is it up to the lecturer’s expectations, but all I know is I and my friends outdid ourselves and deserve a big round of applause. Teamwork make MIRACLE happen. Not only in my studies but also my MIRACLE OC team for 2008/2009. Me suddenly thinking of MYC give me memories of hardship and toughness, but we all worked it out. I heard many bad things about how the MYC08’ was run all and good comments about this year’s OC. Well, I do not want to be defensive or anything. All I want to say is, what has passed, it is passed. People made mistakes and they moved on being corrected. To me, the OC for my year did a spectacular jobs despite many people critic us with bad leadership and blah blah blah. Its plain annoying but still, point is taken.

I MISS MY MYC TEAM!

Price does not measure sincerity and happiness

2009-04-30T01:43:00.000-07:00

Some people always want expensive gifts. Well, those who are lucky may get it. To me, I do not mind not-so-expensive gifts, just as long as it is sincere. I do not buy expensive gifts for people, knowing the fact of my financial situation. However, whenever I buy a gift, it is sincerely from me.

For my past final exams, it had been a stressful fortnight. Mugging the books to the point I realized that my hair is falling at an alarming rate. Thank goodness the nightmares have ended temporarily. One of the booster shot I had was Polo.

It is just Polo. What kind of monumental moron would say Polo is a booster shot for exams? Well, its not the sweet, but the thoughts that came from the sender.

I want to wish her big thanks for the tube of Polo and wish her bon voyage for the Exchange under AIESEC to the land of Shihlin Snacks; Taiwan. May you enjoy teaching kids sentences like “I am…” , not “I is…”

P/s:thanks to yenee for letting me online..since R for Randall now is N for No internet

R for Randall, B for Break, J for Jialat

2009-04-02T21:39:00.000-07:00

dear fellow readers, if u did realise, recently the postings have been slowed down tremendously.
a famous mathematician; Randall (1987- present) once given a famous co-relation.he mentioned that blog postings is inversely proportional to the workload.

so let me explain to you mathematically.
since my blogging posting is down, as the law of inverse proportionality applies in this situation, we know that my workload is up.

and Randall also given some exclusivity in this relation. he mentioned that if the workload exceeds a threshold value, the blogging will decrease exponentially. hence, blogging in R for Randall is being temporarily turned to J for Jialat.

and as you know my Acer kena zapped. and the repair value of it exceeds the budget, so at home now there is no internet connection. thats why in the weekends, my blog is B for Break.

im sorry fellow readers, i dont like this situation,but its there.
anyone knows students who wants to have addmaths, maths, science, physics or chem tuition?
i need to find a job now as im jobless and broke and my expenditure is high.
been on a cost cutting live now by eating plain bread and vege to lower down my expenses.
sob!

Taking advantage

2009-03-29T18:52:00.000-07:00

im sorry fellow readers, i guess this posting have to be removed...but to make story simple and short..i guess that we ought to be more humane when comes to things..
return what u had borrowed in its original condition
:)
cheers from R for Randall

Price doesnt measure sincerity and care

2009-03-23T05:13:00.000-07:00

*censored due to some unforseen circumstances*

and to my friends who wished me happy birthday, im sorry that i may not be able to reply each wishes. but im thankful that you all remember me...
i also gt a gift from my friend Pauline:

socks with toes!!!!!

Fishing with a vengeance

2009-03-19T02:30:00.000-07:00

if you all remembered, last time i nearly lost a hundred bucks worth of fishing equipment due to my carelessness
well, this time i went prepared. combined with an angry feeling for not doing well in exams plus missing the church camp plus loads of assignment plus being jobless, i guess im ready.haha

my hunting ground: Angler's Lodge, Bangi

i do not want to make the same mistake by letting my rod dumped into the pond. so this time, i loaded myself with something called a PROPER ROD HOLDER.

this time also i changed my weapon. for those who appreciates fishing, im using now a Berkley Cherrywood graphite rod and AbuGarcia Cardinal reels. its like Prada and LV but for the fisherman.

so i wont bore u with words..just show u some pictures of the fishes i got..
conclusion: bring a rod holder when fishing. esp in Anglers Lodge. the fishes there are mad...they are angry...and wild~!!!something i like :)

Electro-Zapper

2009-03-16T20:26:00.000-07:00

My Acer had died due to electro-zappers known as LIGHTNING!!!!!
argghhh....
i had to bid the sudden farewell due.
Goodbye ACER...
hopefully u can be CPR-ed back to life...

100100010
011010
010101001
0101

*it means get well soon in binary code*

Doing Eunice a favour

2009-03-16T02:27:00.000-07:00

eunice tagged me for this. hope she compares myself and her..to see the vast difference between a cruel sweetie with herself..
hahaa...
to the rest, enjoy seeing what stupid thing i had done before..

Directions: Mark the stupid things you've done, then add up the number of questions you marked. Then multiply by two and you get your stupidness over 100.

1. [ ] Forgot to put the lid on the blender, turned it on, and had everything fly out
2. [ ] Gotten your head stuck between the stair rails
3. [ x] Broken a chair by leaning back in it
4. [ ]Had gum fall out of your mouth while you were talking
5. [x]Choked on your own saliva while you were talking
6. [ ] Had people tell you that you are blonde when you're not, or had people tell you that your blonde highlights are going to your head
7. [x]Been caught staring at your crush by your crush
8. [x] Have looked for something for at least 5 min then realized it was in your hand
9. [x]Tried to push open a door that said pull
10. [x]Tried to pull open a door that said push
Running total: 6

11. [ ] Have actually believed someone when they said that they knew how to make a love-potion
12. [x]Have hit yourself in the process of trying to hit something else
13. [ x]Have tripped and fallen UP the stairs
14. [ ] Have actually exploded marshmallows in the microwave
15. [x]Have gotten gum stuck in your hair
16. [ ] Had gum fall out of your mouth while trying to blow a bubble
17. [ ]Have had the juice from a mini tomato squirt out and hit somebody else when you bit into it
18. [ ] Have had your drink come out your nose because you were laughing so hard
19. [x]Have called one of your good friends by the wrong name
20. [x ] Have skinned your toe because you were playing soccer or kickball with flip flops on or you were barefoot
Running total: 11

21. [ ] Have put a sticker on your forehead, forgot it was there, and went out in public with it on. [who in the right mind will do such things ...oh yeah..eunice quay will :p]
22. [x] Have fallen out of a moving vehicle
23. [x]Have run into a closed door (it hurts)
[where's 24?!?? XD]
25. [ ]Searched for your cell phone while you were talking on it [not that nyanyuk yet]
26. [x]It has taken you longer than 5 min to get a joke (till today im still wondering)
27. [ ] Have gotten your hair stuck in a blow dryer (real man dun use hair dryer to dry their hair..only wet socks and shoes and hamsters)
28. [ ]Have gotten your hair stuck in a fan
29. [x]Tripped on a crack in the sidewalk
30. [ ] Said o'clock after saying how many min after the hour, example: 5:30 o'clock, or 6:15 o'clock
Running total:15

31. [x]After someone told you that there was gum on the ground, you stepped on it.
32. [ ]Put on a white shirt even though you already knew it was raining outside(sorry..me no hot looking body to have such guts)
33. [x]Have ever walked up to a stranger because you thought they were someone else
34. [ ] Ever been kicked out of a grocery store/off their property
35. [ ]Touched the stove, the curling iron, a hot pan, etc when its on, even though you knew it was hot
36. [ ]Taken off your clothes to change into something else then accidentally put the old clothes back on.
37. [ x]Wondered why something wasn't working then realized it wasn't plugged in
38. [ ]Put the cereal in the fridge, or put the milk in the cupboard
39. [x]Walked into a pole
40. [ ] Wore two different earrings or shoes by accident/stolen someones shoes by accident.(real man dun wear ear rings)
Running total: 19

41. [x] Put your shirt on backwards/inside-out without realizing it then left your house
42. [ ] Tried to take a picture of someone's eye with the flash on(would be in prison if i did)
43. [ ] Gotten a ring stuck on your finger because you put it on even though you knew it was too small(waiting for my ring...)
44. [ ] Walked out of the bathroom (stall) with toilet paper stuck to your shoe without realizing it - GROSS!!!!!
45. [x] Went to go do something/go get something, then when you got there, you forgot what it is was that you were going to do - ALL THE TIME
46. [x] Picked up someone else's drink and drank out of it by accident when your drink was right next to it!
47. [x] Fallen out of your chair while trying to pick something up
48. [ ] Have poked yourself in the eye- who would do such things!!!!blindness..oopppsss..eunice u right??
49. [ x] Have gotten in the shower with your socks still on - it was fun
50. [ ] Melted your hairbrush while blow drying your hair
Running total: 24

Total: 48%

my comments: looks like im smarter than what eunice thought...haha...whoever wanna kena tag just tag urself and have fun...its fun seeing how dumb u can get..to me..im still considered smart..hahaa..congrats R for Randall

Marley and me

2009-03-08T17:27:00.000-07:00

i heart this picture and movie alot.
i do wish having a dog like him.

Economy Downturn

2009-03-07T06:14:00.000-08:00

I was at The Summit USJ to kill sometime before fetching Yenee home. So i bought myself A ticket (Singular ticket) cuz i was alone..
:)
Trust me..this is not a place for people to hang around..its dark..its gloomy..its freaky..its scary..
ironically..there are numerous shops of famous brands..cold storage..MPH..and Hartz Chicken..
but then..still the environment..thumbs and even fingers down..
however and ever..it is way better than South City Plaza..
so u be the judge how pathetic SCP is also.

but this is not the main issue i want to point out in this posting.
as we all know, now the world is facing the global credit crunch..a nicely put name for BOO-YAH...THE WORLD ECONOMY IS FAILING...
many people are laid off their jobs all and are seeking new employment but failed just like me..
4 months unemployed..sucks.
that brings me to wonder..
is the economy really bad?

cuz u see, car sales although are plummeting, the Detroit 3 managed to suck out a huge stake of the federal government money in loans, but then people are still able to fork out hundreds and millions of dollars to splurge on big cars.
many new luxury models are coming up.
many new models of average people are coming out too
look at it.
Exora, 308 *i hate imran for this matter*, and many new models.

so back to the story, as the show begins at 3 and i kind of drove a little too fast and i reached there at 2.15 (15 mins from UPM-Summit = siao!)

i had 45 mins to pocket..and not being brave enough to walk around..i decided to just observe the shops around the cinema - An arcade...

they had many many outdated games..
having the past experience of losing my HP due to pickpocket donkeys in arcade at Mvalley, i was on high alert on any ithcy hand on touching my backside all..
its SEXUAL HARASSMENT mind u pickpockets..if i ever caught u guys pickpocket
1. i will inflict some physical pain on u
2. i will sue u for sexual harassment too

usually in arcades, we expect young teens splurging their money
cursing around in foul languages loaded with cigarretes, and with punk and colourful hairstyle that even a clown will lose.

the fact is..when i was there..the arcade was not fulled with those people..
there are filled with working people..in their formal outfit..this is such a misplace of people...
it is like going to the London Symphony Orchestra but the hall is loaded with drunks and punks..
its utterly nonsensical..

and the fact of these people are supposed to work instead of playing..even me refrain from such arcades cuz its wasting my money..when i have a PS2 and Xbox at home..i dun think spending RM2 to drive like a rooster is wise.

i was there observing these people, playing initial D. haha..those jokers..i know la they can drive around corners at crazy speed which in reality they will be so so so coming home in a box. cuz they were just ramming through corners..hello..i play GT4 and can even drive more smoothly.

when i heard one of them saying this phrase, deep down inside of me was laughing until i choked and died.

"WAS MY DRIFT NICE?"

bunch of jokers...yeah..ur drift is so so nice..cuz u were scraping through the sidewalls..which i know u wont be doing that to ur own car even if it was a old nissan sunny.

i know im not the right person to kutuk those people..but then..its just plain disturbing to see the crowd in the arcade..not teens..not primary kids..but working adults..in briefcases..and ties..lucky not yet coats..perhaps they left it in their cars or office.

what is happening to the world.

Mathematics and Science in English

2009-03-03T21:09:00.000-08:00

Usually R for Randall like to post things which are entertaining instead of factual. however, R for Randall is not only for people to read and laugh.

Recently, its very bothering me about the issue of mathematics and science in english. some smart Jack wants to revert it back to teaching Science and Mathematics in Malay back again.

My opinion is, if they do that they will face serious consequences in the future and i bluff u not. you see, i was one of the lucky recipient to learn science and maths in english, but for a very late late moment, which is in Form Six. being taught in Malay for the many many years made me accustomed to the terminologies used in Malay. when i begin to learn in English during my highschool years, it was a shocked for me personally. i had some hard time grappling with the new English terms especially in Maths. but then, i managed to climb over the hill, and from there on my journey is considered smooth.

You see, i can be considered a fluent speaker in English, can use English just as easy as wearing a slipper. but then, i too had big troubles when i started to changed my knowledge to english. translation was never that easy i see.

but then, now in university, i do realise how much i appreciate the change. the books we use are all in English - except for the Rooster books like kenegaraan, hubungan etnik and TITAS which are all hyper biased and nonsensical books written by some cocks which the facts some of it are screwed up and expect us to read that, understand and then do the exam. well, i got good results from it but after that, the books flew out because i do not condone what are they writing. its BOLLOCKS!

back to the science and maths issue..
as i had mentioned, they should not revert it back. by doing it, i guess it is like we living in the modern world and suddenly have to make a u-turn to the older days. for those who are planning to go overseas and study, they will have a realy hard time if we studied those back to malay. why flip-flop something which is very proven that we ought to catch up with times.

i saw a stupid poster about a demonstration in front of Istana Negara to rally for change of science and maths back to Bahasa Malaysia. my opinion on this is: you are making a fool out of yourselves. Demonstration will only bring shame to the country. are we a bunch of rowdy people who express our emotions by demonstrating on the roads? the issue in Perak is totally a shame to our nation's pride. we have our laws. we have our constitution. the economic situation is a shamble now. and then people - i mean politicians for their selfishness make extra havoc. if i had 1 billion dollars to invest, looking at how malaysians (particularly those who are involved) behave, i would never want to put a single cent. investors look for a peaceful nation. a peaceful politic. all these demonstration would just make our nation suffer. then when our nation economy go down, petrol price increase - Another demonstration.
in the poster, it said that teachers cant cope with the ability of teaching maths and science in english. ISN'T IT OBVIOUS THAT THOSE PEOPLE OUGHT TO BE SACKED?!?!!!
they are incompetent. if they cant master the language, why bother to be a teacher. they should be prepared. come on, its only English. this is for the good of the nation i believe. foreign investors would prefer their clients being able to communicate with them directly, and what other language most people understand? ENGLISH.

therefore, i sincerely plead to the ministers up there. you all have the power, authority and many other things. i hope that it will remain as it is. We should produce more Jaguh Dunia rather than Jaguh Kampung

BOSS's Favourite Chicken Rice

2009-03-02T23:07:00.000-08:00

I Have a friend whom i address as BOSS...
dun ask me why..i guess its a random stuff..
but then..hey..he's a nice guy to hang around since ..
i got no choice because he is the boss..
:p
this boss ah...work under him so long but no salary..
this boss ah...got cute dogs but dun wanna share with his fellow workers..
this boss ah...need to force him to give recipe only he give..not sharing.. :p
this boss ah...
this boss ah...
this...well u get the drift since this is driftinsideways.blogspot.com

today is his special day...the day where bosses become bigger boss..
what do i mean?
it is his birthday...
so let us sing a so to this boss...

happy boss-day to you
happy boss-day to you
happy boss-day to big boss
i want my big salary boss...

if you all do not know who is this boss..
here is his updated branding image of himself..
:)

done by his hardworking worker himself...
aiks..self-praising session again
so, R for Randall wishes Boss
Happy Birthday
may you get Donkeys, Dogs, Dustbins, Drools, Dirt, Dentures...haha..he has to decipher it himself...
and for his birthday gift..
here is a virtual Chicken Rice from Southern Park with added chicken...
just from the aunty..she insisted on extra rice and even Vege..i never get such nice addition in my rice without extra charges..but the aunty gave to him..
sob sob...
enjoy~

by the way..my readers are more than welcome to spam his blog as linked Simple life in my blog..cheerios

Youth Christian Fellowship - March 2009

2009-02-27T16:36:00.001-08:00

Holy, holy, holy, is Jehovah of Hosts; the whole earth full of His glory
(Isa 6:3)
The heavens declare the glory of God; and the firmament showeth his handiwork.
(Psa 19:1)

This month's YCF will be in the jungle of Bukit Cahaya, Shah Alam.
There will be cycling activities.
So people, brace yourselves for uphill and downhill terrain with the rented bikes.
Enjoy what God had created within the 6days of creation while having fellowship with fellow youths.
See you all there!

Advise for Parents

2009-02-24T16:52:00.000-08:00

Do you always complain your kids are not drinking enough water?
Do you feel sad that your kids despise drinking water after sports or any physical activities?
Do you want your kids to drink more water obediently without complaining?

if your answer is yes,
R for Randall has a solution

Curse your kid with bad ulcer
Your kids will love water to the point he will always drink water non stop.

community service message from R for Randall

of pain and salt

2009-02-23T05:08:00.000-08:00

i do not know exactly how true is this.
ulcer+ salt = suicidal pain + quick healing

the past few days i got ulcer..shall not post the pictures of it since my blog is kid-safe blog where there is a promise to my readers..not sensual photos nor disturbing photos where i guess the photo which i suppose to put up is more of disturbing rather than sensual unless you are happy-tree-friends supporter.

i kind of lost faith in bonjela since it is only to reduce the pain but will never promote quick healing for the ulcer..

so today..me..clifford and my roomie edwin went to McD in Sri Serdang..mmm..
yummy...delicious..yeah right..if i din have ulcer..haha
this is the longest time for me to finish up one meal..
cuz it hurt..tiny bites only i can take..more than that..i will scream..and i dun think my scream is nice to hear..
i love listening to tyres screaming..or engine screaming..but me screaming..neh...

and i brought back some packet of salt..and i just pop some onto the ulcer..
yeeeoowwwccchhhh!!!
tears run down my cheek..so eunice and suemay..u had ur revenge..i cried..yeah..tears of pain..tears of hurt..
and then suddenly i saw the ulcer..blood came out..that dun seem so scientific..
but then i hope it will cure soon..
and cliff just burst my bubble saying that is just a myth..
so..
i am selling 4 packets of McD salt packet..
limited edition..
contact me for info..
im auctioning it off..
bidding starts from RM 10/packet..
remember..
this salt brought me down to tears..
i guess suemay and eunice should buy and keep this as a victory gift..

Book Promotion

2009-02-21T09:20:00.000-08:00

the title do sound wrong in most of our context..
haiya..but if the vocab is albit deeper, im sure u all will say..
"ah hah...excellent piece of title"

if not..
"aiyo..why so hamsap one the title..not suitable for kids...cannot read cannot read..go buy your buku latihan better"

so hereby and therefore,
R for Randall would want to promote a book entitled

Do You Wear Suspenders? The Wordy Tales of Eh Poh Nim

by lydiateh.
more info at here.

they all did the video until the wee hours of the morning. my parents were in it too. haha. good excuse for them to come back late.guess i can create a new excuse.
"was helping out my friend record video for his/her new book..thats why i came back at this hour"...
thanks for the excuse..
anyway,
here is the promotional video.enjoy ppl..

Of care and Selfishness

2009-02-21T08:11:00.000-08:00

I was in Sunway pyramid last friday to kill time before fetching Yenee home. there i was in a shopping place buying groceries..from afar off, i saw one lady..she was very physically challenged that she needed those electric chair to move around. i dunno what kind of disease u may call it.
and then, i stopped from where i stand to observe. she wanted a box of milk. anyone in any given day with a normal body can just take and put in the basket or trolley and just walk on with your stuffs. but i pity this lady. she had trouble to get a hold of the milk. and i too saw many people, of different ages, mostly all well off to go judgin on their clothings all. mostly working people. they just dun seem to care about the lady having trouble. as i was about to walk towards the lady to help out, there came a lady promoter.

it seems the rush for money made us forgotten morality and care

Question: What do i think of promoters?
Answer: they just help in order to sell their product for commission.
Reality: the lady promoter came towards her before i did. she helped the pitiful lady to grab the milk and thats all she did. not even a word of promotion of the yoghurt she is selling.

look, most of us are busy with lives. we have our huge responsibilities towards many parties. the thing is, no matter how busy you are, there is still time actualy to lend a helping hand. the promoter lady that helped, eventhough i din know her at all, but then i do appreciate seeing her selflessly helped the poor lady.

bravo to that lady. it is an act of unselfishness. however, in the cold world. how many people would act that way? in my eyes, only a handful of them. the numbers are so minute; just like u grab a handful of sand. count how many particles of sand. its alot. but, u compare it when u grab a handful of it on the beach. do your maths and u will understand what i mean.

look at those ants down there trying to be the best skater. its obvious to see act of selfish and selflessness in here. see when a person falls down, do people bother to stop and help that person up or are they like DENG...dun play la if dunno how to play..NOOB..and then skate off...observe next time when u are there

i do not know exact what make a person to be selfish. those people who just went on with their life walking around shopping reminds me of the story of good samaritan. if those who do not know about the story, then drop me an email at randallc@email.com or comment at www.driftinsideways.blogspot.com and attach ur email so i can explain. is it so hard to just spend a little bit of effort by helping another person?

to me, i failed to take prompt action seeing when the lady needed. i was slower than the selfless promoter lady. but deep down in my heart, its actually nice to see there are still a handful of sand compare to the number of sand in the beach. from where i was standing, i put a smile on my face. she never saw that smile of appreciation. but i do hope that her good deed will continue. cuz you never know, how much of a difference it will make to others.

be selfless!

Kena Tagged

2009-02-17T17:22:00.000-08:00

Copy and paste and put your own answers in. The purpose of this is to get to know your friends better and it's so much fun!

Here are the rules - post this list on your profile (in Notes) replacing my answers with yours. (You can add the notes tab to your profile page!Tag 25 people to do the same thing

If I tagged YOU, it's because I want to know more about YOU!

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
I guess so..but who knows..the time i was named i was like just another baby

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIed?
*secret*

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Oh yes...its very nice writing that basically not many people can comprehend..hieroglyphic...

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAL?
Buffet..if only i can afford it and willing to forsake my diet

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
I want but not yet

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Who in the right mind wont want to friend with Randall ? :p

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
When needed

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
What is that?

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?.
if the string can tahan my weight..and that time im on high

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Uncle Toby *please dun label me as Mr Health*

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
You think i CARE?!?

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
i guess should be Gelato..more healthy

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Face

15. RED OR PINK?
aiks..both also kurang suka..so i choose red

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
I'm FAT

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
My family and someone dearest

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
Look...adele tagged me edy..so i have to spend about 10 min writing it..so YEAH!!!

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Rainbow..lol..no la..its Black..yeah..colour for MAN..real man wear Black

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
grasscutting machine

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Who in the right mind wants to be a crayon..kids abuse you dude...wake up!!!

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Smell of success and happiness

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My dear

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH
I wish they have on TV - Paintball and D1

27. HAIR COLOR?
black

28. EYE COLOR?
brown

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
tried too but failed...real man wear glasses..YEAH!!

30. FAVORITE FOOD
cooked by somebody

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
happy endings

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
forgotten edy..i miss cinemas

33. WHAT COLOR OF SHIRT DO YOU LIKE TO WEAR?
Black..like i said..real man wear black..

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
winter

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
plenty of X and O's

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND TO?
free money and fun..

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
anything but that

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
My form 6 maths....haih..exam exam..DENG DENG..

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
never existed since i had a laptop

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
u think i got tv in my small Hostel room? my roomie and i edy not enough space to chuck our stuffs...and u expect me to add another box..in my hectic schedule..and little sleep time...and let me enjoy while im expected to suffer thanks to exams and headache studies??seriously..

42. FAVOURITE SOUND(S)?
accapella *i know its albit bored to teens*, and sound of happiness from someone

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
The Beatles

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Australia

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
can someone share with me about it?

46 WHERE WHERE WERE U BORN
Klang

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK
everyone

48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
ask her...i shy shy..cuz im introvert and shy shy cat

You're tagged:
Imran *if he ever bother reading my blog rather than dropping pianos on people head*
Sydney
Sue May
RueRue
OLZ
FIDO - u better care about this
and others in my linkies

New Life After Extra TLCs

2009-02-14T09:25:00.000-08:00

R for Randall JIALAT

2009-02-09T18:20:00.001-08:00

I jialat jialat...
Structural analysis is in Deep trouble..
deeper than my empty pocket..
deeper than any trenches..
how in the world can 2 questions be 2 hours..
it needs to be 4

Castrol EDGE Sport Speed Challenge

2009-02-09T06:21:00.000-08:00

Do you have the EDGE for winning?
Do you want to be involved in SPEED but without the Samans??
Do you want to have the WINNING spirit within you?
Do you want to taste VICTORY?
Do you?
Do you?

if you do, Squeeze yourself into the Castrol EDGE Sport Speed Challenge
Join in the CHALLENGE.
Join in the new TECHNOLOGY
Be a part of this LIQUID TECHNOLOGY

details at www.castroledge.com.my

R for Randall is sick

2009-02-08T22:55:00.000-08:00

physically and mentally..due to huge numbers of exams..
why do MAN smartly created exams...
haih..

The loss

2009-02-08T01:35:00.000-08:00

This morning my feelings was turned from happy to sad. not that people hurt me or anything.but it was the hymn of encouragement - you never mention him to me.
to many, this song is just a song.
to me, it is more than a song.
i loss my god dad in 2007. he was one of a great man that cared for me more than many of my other relatives. i remembered those moments when i was pampered by him. and those moments he cared for me just like he cared for my godbro.
but then, he passed on as a non-christian. we know what is the meaning of this. sadly, it is not the ending i hope for such a good man. we all tried to persuade him to come to church. but he rejected it. i really regret over this.
and now, whenever i hear this song, i blame myself for this loss.

Congrats

2009-02-04T05:36:00.000-08:00

to my buddies Andrew Koay and Kelly Khoo..
on their occasion being husband and wife..
im sorry i din make it there..
u know the story..
but then..at last u 2 tied the knot and im happy for u two..
may u 2 continue to be a shining example in the vineyard..

p/s: 2 couples getting married...wow..times are catching up with me..there are many more to come..
but then..wonder when will be mine?
:p

Contemplation

2009-02-04T02:20:00.000-08:00

i have to thank nuffnang for giving me 2 free tickets to watch punisher..
yay~!!
been awhile since i watched free movies..the last was by hitz.fm and mix.fm premier screenings..
it will be this monday..
there is only some issues:
1. tuesday 8am i will be having my exam
2. i have to rush back to uni by that night..super scary if i cant make it in time for exam..since i am famous for bangun lambat..
3. i need to RSVP by fri...
ARRRGGGggghHHHHH

*UPDATEs*
i decided not to go already..too obvious choice..haha..giving it to other nuffnangers...
sob sob sob

Congrats from R for Randall

2009-01-29T21:29:00.000-08:00

My heartiest congratulations to both Michael and St Paul *actually is Pauline* for being officially husband and wife...
so now i can address them both as Mr and Mrs Beh..or in Bahasa Malaysia is known as

Tuan dan Puan Beh.

May the Lord continue to bless you two in your journey of life as one entity and one body. the journey ahead will be tough but im sure u two will go along well with it.
Right? Right?

Announcement from R for Randall

2009-01-25T07:17:00.000-08:00

this is me.
me is on a buffalo.
buffalo is this year's animal.
today is going to be the beginning of the year.
so me on the buffalo wishes everyone

happy chinese new year.

p/s: thanks everyone who wished me for CNY...i really appreciate all ur kind wishes..
God bless everyone from www.driftinsideways.blogspot.com

R for Randall meets with Da Boss and King Julian

2009-01-21T00:19:00.000-08:00

from Left: King Julian, R for Randall and the founder of RR; Da Boss

Anyone interested??

2009-01-21T00:02:00.001-08:00

ad sponsored by R for Randall (www.driftinsideways.blogspot.com)

Let your light so shine

2009-01-20T16:19:00.000-08:00

It came into my knowledge about blogs flying around here and there.
first of all let me say how thankful i am for the readers of my blog who continuously sabo with comments and cboxes...
it does drive me to write more nonsense..bla bla bla..
u know i used to hate photography until i started the itch to blog..
wakaka..
thats why nowadays if im at home..my blog will be added pixies..
unless in upm cuz the Wifi here is so so fast..faster than the speed of light!!
yeah right!!
here hard to upload pixies one..
always fail..

recently, i read some of the blogs..
it does make me quite disappointed with the writers themselves..
it is not because they have poor grammar or poor writing skills..
i dun mind reading poorly grammartised blogs because i know my blog is not that perfect in terms of grammar too..
but what i meant is their vocabulary
some of them just freely and happily pop out words of 'life' in their blogs..
in the Bible, it has already said
'let your light so shine upon the world that they may see your good works'
having those words of 'life' i dun seem to feel that it is a good work..

As christians we do bear a responsibility in writing up with proper words..be it funny or sad..but words of 'life' are definitely out of the box..
some non-christians do write good things ..some more from the bible..that is i guess something i should heavily respect..perhaps with a roti kosong and ais kosong..cuz im broke..
lol
but better than nothing..
so i hope next time when a blogger post a posting..
i do hope the vocab will be more cleaner and avoiding words of 'life'

God bless all of u and have a happy Chicken feet CNY

what do u think of the photo editing quality?

2009-01-16T22:46:00.000-08:00

of Drag and SPLASH

2009-01-15T00:46:00.000-08:00

wooh...
today was a horrible day indeed..
in the morning the class were extremely boring..
u know how it feels like being able to end the lectures...
its like how Brad Pitt feels when he dumps Jennifer Aniston for Angelina J.
-REFRESHED!
so i decided in the blue blue and last minutes..
to go to Bangi to stretch myself out..tranquility..hmm..
thats the word..
i knew that anglers lodge was closed for two months..
so i went to another pond recommended by a fellow angler - DM pond..
nonsense..
for the first 1 hour and 30 min..
not even a nibble
the pond was so dead quiet..
no fish popping out..no splashes..
all the rods are as good as dead..
SSCCRRREEETTTTT>>.....
thats the sound of my reel drag..
music!
oh yeah
i actually had fastened my rod onto few bricks and stones..
so while i was about to grab the rod and enjoy my life..
SPLASH!!!!

THE ROD FLEW INTO THE POND!!!
DEEP INSIDE THE BELLY OF THE POND..
I was like die die die..
hundred bucks of money and bucket loads of memories down into this pond?!!!

one fellow angler..
he saved my day..
he lend me his spare rod..loaded with huge treble hooks and a dead weight..
for me to cast into the belly hoo..
hoping that i may hook my rod..
people fish for fish..i fish for rods..
Randall - the Rod Hunter..
sorry Irwins'..another hunter in the world beside croc hunter..

while i was albit stunned by the whole event..
i suddenly reeled in a string..
super familiar colour and size..
then i drag the string..
AMEN!!
HALLELUJAH!!!!
Praise the Lord...
i was praying all the time hoping that God answer my prayer to salvage my rod back again..
and God answered..
to whoever who do not believe in the power of prayer..take that...
some may argue its pure luck..
but i want to say..it is god's providence..

people, whenever you have doubts about god..
whenver you think that god dun bother about u..think twice..
God would answer prayers such as HELP ME SAVE MY ROD...
to many..it is just a minute not relevant prayer...small thing no need to pray..
let me tell u..
this rod and reel means a world to me
all my big size fishes are pulled up by this puny rod..
and when God answered my prayer..
i felt refreshed..
way more than when lectures are ended...

PRAISE BE TO GOD ALMIGHTY...

‘The Rise of the Lycans starts Jan 09′

2009-01-14T19:01:00.001-08:00

‘The Rise of the Lycans starts Jan 09′

Wanted: Fishing Pond

2009-01-13T04:21:00.000-08:00

In search of new fishing pond around klang - Serdang - Sri Kembangan - Bangi
suspected to cause the blog owner to have sleepless nights due to the silence of the rod and reel.
if found, contact Randall at 0166758849 urgently..
Reward will be given

Airbags

2009-01-06T06:14:00.000-08:00

was in my Friend's Persona..his model dun have airbags..
his reasonings were simple...

Him: airbag, no airbag if bad accident sure die one..

Me: true! but then with airbag the bomba will have an easier time taking out your body instead of minced meat and you can have a proper funeral where ppl can view your body instead of minced meat.

hhmm..
eunice..another words of wisdom from bob-the-builder

Youth Christian Fellowship

2009-01-05T07:48:00.000-08:00

all ye who have eyes, let him/her read
all ye who have ears, let him/her hear

YOUTH CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP is coming your way...
See you all there!!!

My missing links

2009-01-04T03:47:00.001-08:00

Ppl!!
red alert..
saya punya links all hilang..
can u all send me ur bloggie adds for me to relink??
chicken feet

Quotes about Laziness

2009-01-02T08:41:00.000-08:00

Here is a posting dedicated to one of my friend - i shall make that person anonymous due to Publicity issue...its about Laziness

Laziness is the lack of desire to act or to work, to stretch one's forces; tendency to rest, to do nothing. In other words it is apathy and inactivity in the practice of virtue. It is basically inactivity resulting from a dislike of work. It is relaxed and easy activity. It is very difficult to drive oneself away from laziness as it makes you very inactive and to shred that inactiveness, one has to push himself a lot. These quotes can be quoted to make children familiar with the negative effects of laziness and how to drive it away and remain active. These can also be quoted to emphasize on the signs of laziness.

I don't think necessity is the mother of invention - invention, in my opinion, arises directly from idleness, possibly also from laziness. To save oneself trouble.
Agatha Christie

Idleness is not doing nothing. Idleness is being free to do anything.
Floyd Dell

Determine never to be idle...It is wonderful how much may be done if we are always doing.
Thomas Jefferson

Failure is not the only punishment for laziness; there is also the success of others.
Jules Renard

Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired.
Jules Renard

He that is busy is tempted by but one devil; he that is idle, by a legion.
Thomas Fuller

Far from idleness being the root of all evil, it is rather the only true good.
Soren Kierkegaard

Never be entirely idle; but either be reading, or writing, or praying or meditating or endeavoring something for the public good.
Thomas a Kempis

2008

2009-01-02T07:25:00.000-08:00

2008 had just passed by the wink of an eye...
figuratively la
..
looking back at my past history...
2008 was quite a year to remember
this posting is to remember wat had happened and shall be in memories

fishing class~ how fun...since u r learning things u edy know..

visitation to Kuantan COC ... arrived late due to the above picture :p

the founding of Raven at Taman Rakyat

being addicted to RoadTrips...my first road trip... Genting-Frasers-UPM

seeing people doing Shisha...did i do it?NOPE...

driving hard around the course at GRA in Shah Alam...oh yeah~~

National Pioneer Camp with AIESEC - wierd memories..

visitation to the Orphanage... i pity them alot...

they deserve better than what they have

Celine Dion Concert... thank you dear for making my dream come true...xoxo

paying a premium price on Movie Tickets..
but its worth every cent

buying a 'new' old phone

broken dreams...aiks... i meant windscreen

Thickening our skin to walk around in sandwich boards..,fun...!!

rumble in the jungle with Randall as the Chancellor

RM2.70/litre...dumb and angry moments...thanks Gov for reducing the price

Burning my tyres uphill Genting...Burning my brakes downhill Genting...love it!!

FlyFishing in Clearwater Sanctuary, Perak

My first PB on Fly!!yahhooo...

My group bridge...only wood and glue...but strong...

Geology Field Trip...haih...ppl go beach enjoy... we go beach see stones...

Lions Scholarship Training Prog...it was a funfilled week...cant wait for Phase II

MIRACLE Closing..these Lalat.Fm ppl roxxx

Kayakking at Putrajaya...first time ever..and im loving it so much that i played twice

Post Exam Stress Relieve - A Night out to KLCC

Geomatic Camp - Sux but the fun is with my coursemates doing together ...esp my group...i know we worked our butts to death including the model but grade like crap...nonetheless i still enjoyed the team work...up yours stupid graders..

PD Trip - the birth of UKL's and RR's

A night at Palace of Golden Horses

all of these are nice...
all of these are fun...okay some not...but majority are
all of these are sweet memories...
but one of the sweetest memory is...

having a girl like her...
she changed my world and made it better...

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*to my readers, i know i put alot of her photo...but then i still thank u for always reading my blog...i shall try to make it more fun-filled for the year 2009*
happy 2009 year...

Happy New Year

2008-12-31T01:46:00.000-08:00

wishing all my readers a pleasant and happy new year..

new year means:

new life
new hope
new blossoms
new future
new expectations
new births and marriages
new pay slip (hopefully not paycut) - BOSS...i wan my salary
and many new stuffs..

god bless all of u~!!

Good luck to LC UPM

2008-12-29T01:23:00.000-08:00

two of them are facing a new phase of life...
Brandon and Chloe...
wishing u 2 best of luck in the MC Election..
you two had proven track records and im proud to know u 2..
not forgeting my ex-EB ppl..
u all also rock...

Good luck

Some precious piece of memory

2008-12-23T22:06:00.000-08:00

till the day i breathe my last..this place shall always be a memory within me as it is sentimental to me
:)

one year in passing

2008-12-23T06:11:00.001-08:00

one year ago u left us...
do wish u are still here strangling me
and asking u questions like

1. paul planted, apollos water but god gave the increase; who is apollos?
2. what apple did adam ate?
3. how is paul related to saul?
4. in the beginning god created heavens and earth. how many heavens did god created?

you early departure did create a hole within us. but although u seemed to have passed on, we do miss your presence. but we do envy you; esp me. you are spared from many things which we have to go through too. exams, work, crisis.

i know now u are safe in god's hand. and i am comforted to know that.

so in one year of your passing, we will visit ur physical place of rest...
we would not forget all ur intelligence in not related things of life ;p

till we meet again..either i die or when christ's second coming,

from ur 'best' buddy
*if u r here im sure u will be happily strangling me*
ME!

This is Me in YDP

2008-12-23T03:58:00.000-08:00

Dear Group Untitled..
this is something from me.. kungfu panda

well..4 days had passed..we met and bonded together

we put a cute smile whenever we meet upwe show how Man can bond with each other without being labelled as brokeback :pwe peep at every opportunity to sleep during class..then after that be awaken for fun session..sorry uncle eddy...
we force our heads to study during exams and then release stress by coming even a day late but ended up being called boh-chin instead of boon chin
we build a bridge that connects between two world...two or more strangers to go to a place call tombok instead of pondok......and in the end..all the sweeet memories will fall into place..
Group untitled...LUCKY WE NOT LAST..WAKKAAAAKAKAAA..
BUT keep in touch
i will make a video about us ASAP and upload for u guys and girls to watch...
keep this blog alerted..

This is who i Am

2008-12-22T07:29:00.000-08:00

some ppl from Kwang Hwa may be laughing their heads off to see this
Well,
here we go*i love my 'wendy' alot*
xoxo

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aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
(Take your places)
aaaaaaaaaaaaah!

Can we fix it?
Yes we can!

(chorus)
Bob the builder
Can we fix it?
Bob the builder
Yes we can!

Scoop, Muck and Dizzy
and Rolly too.
Lofty and Wendy
join the crew.
Bob and the gang
have so much fun.
Working together,
they get the job done!

(chorus)
Bob the builder
Can we fix it?
Bob the builder
Yes we can!

Bob the builder
Can we fix it?
Bob the builder
Yes we can!

Time to get busy.
Such a lot to do.
Building and fixing
till it's good as new.
Bob and the gang
make a really good sound.
Working all day
till the sun goes down.

(chorus)
Bob the builder
Can we fix it?
Bob the builder
Yes we can!

Bob the builder
Can we fix it?
Bob the builder
Yes we can!

Can you fix it?
Right.
Left a bit.
Right a little.
Ok, straight down.

We can tackle any situation
Look out, here we come

Can we dig it? Yes
Can we build it? Yes
Can we fix it? Yes

(chorus)
Bob the builder
Can we fix it?
Bob the builder
Yes we can!

Bob the builder
Can we fix it?
Bob the builder
Yes we can!

Digging and mixing
Having so much fun
Working together
They get the job done

Can we dig it? Yes
Can we build it? Yes
Can we fix it? Yes

Bob the builder! Hey!!!
Bob the builder! Altogether now

Bob the builder
Can we fix it?
Bob the builder
Yes, yes we can!

Bob the builder
Can we fix it?
Bob the builder
oooooooh!!

(chorus)
Bob the builder
Can we fix it?
Bob the builder
Yes we can!

We'd better get some work done

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My semester results

2008-12-19T08:18:00.001-08:00

this is how i felt when i saw the results...
the results came punching at my face.
full of sadness
study so hard get this
study NOT hard *previous sem* still like this..
jialat...
totally disappointed..

Taboo

2008-12-19T08:16:00.000-08:00

i hinted for this as:
Jesus's mother injured...sad to say...no one managed to understand what i meant..
noob in taboo i guess i am
lol

a horrible week

2008-12-12T20:44:00.000-08:00

i just had a horrible week...
nothing seemed to make me happy...
i wonder...

Be Strong and Take Courage

2008-12-09T00:36:00.000-08:00

Be Strong And Take Courage
By Don Moen

Be strong and take courage
Do not fear or be dismayed
For the Lord will go before you
And His light will show the way

Be strong and take courage
Do not fear or be dismayed
For the one who lives within you
Will be strong in you today

Why don' you give him all of your fears
Why don't you let him wipe all of your tears
He knows, He's been through pain before
And He knows all that you've been looking for

So, be strong and take courage
Do not fear or be dismayed
For the Lord will go before you
And His light will show the way

Be Strong and take courage
Do not fear or be dismayed
For the one who lives within you
Will be strong in you today

Nothing can take you out of his hand
Nothing can face you can't command
I know that you will always be
In His love, in His power you will be free!!

So, be strong and take courage
Do not fear or be dismayed
For the Lord will go before you
And His light will show the way

Be Strong and take courage
Do not fear or be dismayed
For the one who lives within you
Will be strong in you today

Be Magnified

2008-12-09T00:31:00.001-08:00

Artist: Don Moen - Author: Lynn DeShazo

I have made You too small in my eyes
O Lord, forgive me;
And I have believed in a lie
That You were unable to help me.
But now, O Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong;
And in my eyes and with my song
O Lord, be magnified
O Lord, be mag - nified.

CHORUS:
Be magnified, O Lord
You are highly exalted;
And there is nothing You can't do
O Lord, my eyes are on You.
Be magnified,
O Lord, be mag - nified.

I have leaned on the wisdom of men
O Lord, forgive me;
And I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and Your mercy.
But now, O Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong;
And in my eyes with my song
O Lord, be magnified
O Lord, be magnified.

CHORUS:
Be magnified, O Lord
You are highly exalted;
And there is nothing You can't do
O Lord, my eyes are on You.
Be magnified,
Lord, be mag - nified.

wishes

2008-12-07T17:24:00.000-08:00

to those who are going away for holidays..wishing u have a pleasant trip..i will be stuck here at my place..cuz i got no one to go with..
dun seem to look forward for YDP..dun seem to look forward for uni to reopen..
just looking forward for something which wont happen to me at all..
damn!

Working Day 3

2008-12-07T17:23:00.001-08:00

Third day has come. Well, things all started at a slow pace. I don't see any cool things happening, but then today the company had some exhibition for safety. Fireman, ambulance, police just to name a few. Other than that nothing happened. Just experience the first case of FFK. Appointment for lunch all had been set but then they had their priorities set wrongly.

I had been reading the last lecture. I do wish I was as optimistic as him. He died and left a legacy. I wonder could I leave such legacy like him. He could have just set a bench mark for me in my life. Imagine have cancer with few months to leave. He tried to correct all the flaws he had. I know I have many flaws. Who doesn't have right?

The urge of him creating a new environment for his family, especially for his young kids totally impressed me. He said that he could be waling around sulking he had cancer, gonna die etc etc. but he did not. He chose to live his life to the fullest. I do find that amazing. All this while I had be a negative source of energy. Those who is contemplating on suicide, come find me. I know what you feel. I nearly wanted to do so. But then I felt that why should we be sulking away and be depress. We can instead just try to live life to the fullest.

We are all different and unique. I cant please everyone and everywhere and every time. I used to have this challenge of myself to please everyone, everyday and every time. It hurted me really bad. Because I just could not. So why should I pressure myself for this?

There are people who SHOULD appreciate for who I am and how I look. For sure I know I do not have any attractive physical looks. I am fat, short, and even not academically so smart like many others. I accept who I am. There are definitely room for improvements, but then if that still doesn't make them happy, sorry to say that you better find others. I treat people as good as possible. If you do not treat me well, just remember this, imagine you are treated likewise. Never think you are the best or most capable dude in the world – because you are not. You can strive for it though.

The later part of my day I just drop by the Matching Plant of Tasek Cement. It is just a simple plant of doing the mixing and batching for the concrete to be used in the construction. At there, I saw a little puppy. I feel very pity looking at it.

The pups have practically lost all its fur perhaps due to some disease. It was frail and fragile. Due to its condition, it was kept being shoo-ed away. It is only a young pup and doesn't deserve such cold treatments. Humans always separate and segregate themselves. Because of this; we get all the weird –isms, namely feminism, macho-ism, gay-ism, lesbianism. It all ends with an –ism. This is an unhealthy environment as it creates a holier-than-thou attitude. Humans are all the same.

The company actually have a talk about working hazards all. Something interesting as it tells you how protected are we by the laws. Surprisingly, Malaysia has many many laws backing up employees in the nation when comes to welfare. We all complain Malaysia no good, but if we just take things into perspective, it is definitely wrong. Malaysia is indeed a great country to live in. we have great food, great people, great roads at the hillsides (yeah!!!!). no doubt there are no perfect country to live in, but then it is actually way better than many other places I had been.

Working Day 2

2008-12-07T17:21:00.000-08:00

Today is another new day for me. Sadly, today is the day She finishes her exam but I had to be stuck at the office working. She will be going away soon from me on vacation without me. This is a damn sad thing. But then its her freedom. Who the hell am I to tell right?

Today in work is also another experience for me. Went to a project site along the river. It's a grand scale project. So there I was with the project coordinator, driving here and there and everywhere seeing the progress of the project. If I could ever kick-start a project as big as that, I will be so impressed with myself. Even MYC had so many challenges cant beat the scale of this project.

Then a tragedy happened. A worker fell and broke his leg. Oh boy. Pity him le. Worse part is, his welfare is not really well taken care of. I am shocked by the employer’s attitude. He busted his leg quite bad. But then for him to wait for the transport is worse. I do not seem to be able to find the sense of humanity on how people treat those low wages worker. They are earning as much from the measly pay. But then just because of that, people treat them like animals. I really cant imagine me working in such field next time. If whenever an employee of mine injures or even fall sick, I would sure halt the project for a moment to help him/her out. Until all are safe, I shall only continue the project. Big bosses would not like this. They may face the possibility of losing more money.

People do forget, which is more important. Money or humanity. Imagine you have the most amount of money in the world, but without anyone respecting for who you are. Or would you imagine, you are just an average person, but with a huge sense of big-heartedness and charity and humanity, of course for me I do want both. But sadly, we cant get EVERYTHING we wanted. I wanted a vacation with her but ended up get shit only.

After that, I went on the ‘piling’ tour… seriously… this is an eye opener to me. I used to think pilings are just a waste of money but then today showed that it is more than that. It pays to be more systematic in life. Yesterday and today progress at the site was a total different view. They are really working their butts off. How nice if I can see the progress daily but sadly my work will be ended on Friday already. When the next time I shall return it SHOULD be completed unless there are some other problems faced by them.

The next thing is I went to the Chalk making factory. Chalks are used to be thrown by teachers to students who are dead asleep (partially guilty) or even for students to scribble on the black board during the black board era. But I saw them how they wash, process, cook and grind the chalk.

This really proves that to know something is good. But if you know, you see, and you DO something, that is what I call a life long learning experience.

Me signing off from day 2

p/s: i cant seem to get the html code for my day 1 working...nvm..nothing much also that day..lol

Apologies

2008-11-27T04:55:00.000-08:00

to those who are reading my blog..im sorry for not being able to update you all this few days..
for some who dunno..im currently training under my scholar company..
so this few days i had been super exhausted..next week will be worse off because i will have to travel 50km up down daily...
morning until late at night..imagine this..
klang-banting-nilai-banting-nilai..
all in a day's work...
dealing and seeing steel manufacturing opened my eyes big big..
its not a simple industry..
and trust me.your life will shorten many many years if u stay there..metal dust...dust..ash..heat..hazard..cutting machines..molten steel..
hehe..
life cut short..
so if i die..i will miss all of u very much..

*sad cant go holiday with someone*Damn...

What would made my day perfect?

2008-11-18T03:12:00.000-08:00

having a vacation with someone; not someone with otherone
getting a new car to drive up the hills
fishing and getting many fishes
doing things i like together with people
people respecting me for who i am

not that simple to make my day perfect right..i tried..but failed..ungraciously

Words of Wisdom (WOW) of Fido

2008-11-12T20:02:00.000-08:00

People are often unreasonable,

illogical, and self-centered,

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse

you of selfish, ulterior motives,

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends

and some true enemies

Succeed anyway.

If you are

honest a

nd frank,

people may cheat you,

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building;

someone could destroy it overnight,

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,

they may be jealous,

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,

people will often forget tomorrow,

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,

and it may never be enough,

Give the world the best you got anyway.

You see in the final analysis,

it is between you and god,

It is never between you and them anyway.

Religious Principles

2008-11-12T17:17:00.001-08:00

yeah right....
pictures are copyrighted to their owners

Is it too much?

2008-11-12T08:02:00.000-08:00

Is it too much to ask for one small sacrifice?
Is it too much to be a company?
Is it too much to lend a shoulder?
Is it too much to colour one's life?

IS IT??
I DUNNO..

Hoping for a Ray of Hope

2008-11-11T08:32:00.000-08:00

these were two of my so called best photoshot during my short camp at UPM Ayer Hitam Forest Reserve. it tells me...
we are all living in darkness..fears..pain..sorrow..hurt..unfairness..inequality...one way communication..poverty..alienation..isolation..and many other dark parts of our life..
dont we wish we can see our lifes in such picture..
despite all those mentioned words..
we do want a hope..a hope to brighten our life..
a hope to change darkness into light..
a hope to cure our heartbroken feelings and anger and pain..
a hope....
a hope....
a hope....

Since when lobsters and sotongs have it!!

2008-11-11T08:26:00.001-08:00

Read my TAG!!!

2008-11-11T02:06:00.000-08:00

In response to Sharron's tag, so here goes..

The Rules of Play:

1) link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2) share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
3) tag 7 people at the end of your post (link or not, up to you)
4) let them know they are tagged.

7 common Facts :

1)i just go high listening to powerful car engines and designs
2)i love driving my car along the hillsides and beaches
3)i hate it when things doesnt go my way
4)i hate feeling isolated and ppl FFK at last minutes
5)i will love a person who really loves me
6)i like lepaking with AIESECers in UPM...they rock
7)i NEED a vacation...anyone wanna join?

The List of Honour rolls on to :- )
1.Adele
2.Li Zhen
3.Sue May
4.Fido
5.Imran - you suck dude~!!! ;p
6.Rue Haan
7.Dr. M (if he ever reads mine..lol)

Of screeching tyres and burning brakes

2008-11-08T08:16:00.000-08:00

After one long semester..

Exams for my third semester had finally ended..

time for a short 7weeks break..from my previous postings..u know what i meant for my holidays but of the sad outcome reality..

sad sad

but no choice just to look forward

so after the night of KLCC rampaging..

6am - departed from my college towards gombak

Dark picture at the time of shot

one of my favourite stretch is actually gombak-karak road..
its winding..twisting..and nerve wrecking if u drive wildly..complimented by the pain within..guess that made the drive more colourful..

so the thing is fast forwarded to i went to genting

oh how i miss the breeze..but then when i was there..
all alone..seeing couples staying together..holding hands..enjoying romantic morns together..
i wish .. i wish..
but the reality is this wish would not come true...
tough luck eh??
reality do suck mostly

then when i went downhill..
things started to become fun...
as u know genting downhill is horrible
bumps everywhere..
when u turn the corners at high speed..
u are greeted with humps after that...
speed brake speed brake..
so guess what
my interior smelt brakes..
and the braking was horrible
pedal to the metal..the feel is almost zero..

at gohtong jaya..
i stopped and my fears were true..
brakes overheat..

you cant really see from the picture..because it cooled down alot..
but before that..smoke...
hhmm..
pity the pads and calipers..

after that downhill become slower and calmer..
need to drive back home to klang le..
lol
one heck of the driving u may say
:)

randallc
want his dreams and wishes to come true but will never

Giving and taking

2008-11-03T21:42:00.000-08:00

being a person, it is normal we hear this phrase give and take.
Everyday, the bell of give and take ring ring ring and ring.
i feel that everyone should practice giving and taking. in the past few weeks and month, you all may seem to realise that things begin to change in me. I do wish it was a change of better-ment. sadly, im sorry to disappoint u all people, it is for the worse.
Throughout my life, i always believe that for people to give, you ought to give. Yes! how idealistic this phrase is. I followed such advise. making people happy when they are sad, accompanying them when they need a shoulder, putting aside all ur studies, exam period, or even to a certain extent, your savings, just to make them feel better.
But however, nowadays, the picture gets clearer and clearer. people only want to take but never want to give. i dun seem to be able to feel about this two way relationship thing.
all this while i felt like an idiot. maybe i am....
maybe i am....

randallc is unhappy

What I want

2008-11-02T23:05:00.000-08:00

this week would be my final week for my third semester.
I had laid forth what my dream is this 7 week break

1. Go holiday with Her

Reality: Cant happen

2. Meet her together

Reality: She would be on Vacation w/o me after Exams - Bring up to #1 - Cant happen

3. Driftin at hillsides

Reality: no car how la expect me to go hillsides? bicycle ah!!! - Cant happen

So one heck of a holiday i will say..

Current reality #2

2008-10-29T00:42:00.001-07:00

nobody do listen to my feelings and opinion.
whatever that is best for people is for they themselves.
living in a world of earless society

Current Reality

2008-10-25T16:07:00.001-07:00

1.Im not okay
2.Im hurt badly
3.I dont appreciate things anymore
4.I blame myself for every failure
5.I suck in everything
6.I cant make people happy and stay with me
7.I feel like leaving everything in the world

Sounds depressing?
I AM BLOODY DEPRESS!!!!!!!

Im not okay

2008-10-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

Guess only the title suits my emotion now.

IM NOT OKAY - MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
Well if you wanted honesty, That's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look!

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You say you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay.
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust me.)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-f*****g-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)